something like goodbye

why doesn't life fix itself and change on its own?
why does the wind change?
why don't friends remember to tell you when they change?
why does the wind go away in the summer?
why isn't happiness growing on trees and growing fruitfully?

people change and forget to tell us. that sentence has been going on and on in my head for the longest time and i can't seem to figure out the truth. the answer. why do people change without telling their closest of friends. why do they make choices and forget to inform us, the ones that care so much, the ones that put effort into helping them become who they are today. or rather who they were. changing is easy. now i remember very well writing the post explaining how change is the hardest thing in the world and how i despise it. however, since then much about me has changed and all of my perspective on life has appeared differently. everything since then has been nothing but an amazing journey to where i am today. loving change and encouraging people to change if they don't like themselves. because really isn't that all we do everyday? change coffee flavors, change clothes, change our minds on projects, change our thoughts about the days to come, change our views on people, WE CHANGE. and that's okay. embrace it and love every piece on that change.

which is why i changed. why i am changing everyday and continuing to do so. why i will no longer be posting here. is to change my messy life and story. i'm changing and i hope you continue with me on this journey. i love you and you can continue to follow at this new blog:
http://becominghailey.blogspot.com/

xoxo-
hailey :)

college road trip . trips

Summer Road Trip from hailey on Vimeo.

sorry I haven't posted in ages. i've been very busy in recovery, school (senior year), and so much more! i wanted to share today with you a video i made last night about my trip to colleges in WA, OR & it was so much fun! we got to see family in WA. we visited three colleges & we also got to see lots of amazing things in WA!! I went with my dad and we left at 5am the day after school got out! 

i hope you all had an amazing summer & that you are preparing for fall!!


xoxo-Hails

june . personal

dear june,

please bring all the happiness, peace, excitement, & love in the world to me. seeing as how these last few months haven't been the most nice or joyful months. i need this. i need a peace of happiness to hold onto for my whole life. i need this month to go on adventures & enjoy them, to laugh & really feel happy, to help & be 100% honest. i need you to bring me happiness. i need just full disclosure with my mental state, physical state, & spiritual state. i need to feel the warmth of friends hugs. i need to feel the hope in senior year and that it will be better. i just need you to shine brighter than anything imaginable! 

please, just be that for me.

-hailey 

I have so much hope in june and in the fact that it will bring me all those things!! this month is CRAZY!! that probably doesn't even begin to describe it, though. it will start with a cleanse with my mother! so i finally convinced her to do a cleanse with me! it will be a diy cleanse so we don't have to spend lots of money on those crazy juices. haha, i will be making us smoothies every morning for the school hours & then when we get home I will make another for us :) i'm very excited, my mom is still on the edge about it but, i know she will come around!

then the week from the 10th to the 12th I have finals in all my classes, good: i have minimal days. bad: i have two long finals each class. i am putting myself through so much, i need all A's and i am allowing only one B. i will be horribly disappointed in myself if i don't get those grades, i will be so mad at myself!!! it is frustrating. 

then, i will be leaving at the beautiful hour of 5 am the next morning, 13th, to head over to Oregon and Washington to go on a college road trip with my daddy! we have been planning this for about a month now, and i made an itenerary and we got our maps! so excited for those fun adventures with him!!!

then I will get back on the 22nd and then i will have the 23rd to unpack, do laundry, & repack. this day will make me crazy & i will be so tired! (I have to repack for my german trip)

then we will wake up at around 6am to triple check that i have everything, go on one last run (before i leave the country), shower, & head to starbuck to get coffee then on our way to the airport! We have to be at the airport by 8:30am and our flight leaves at 10:05am. i won't be back until the 28th of July.

some very exciting things will be happening in my life! I am so excited to go to germany with the two most important people in my life, Anna & Patricia. i couldn't make it through without them and their support. i'm truly blessed to be able to go do all these things & see all these places!! i will keep you updated with photos & posts, i promise!

stay beautiful,

h