intro | hudson was there . written words

this is my 2014 book! i plan on starting it today & ending it sometime in december! i want to take a long time on this so i can get it just right & perfect for you all.. { if there is in fact anyone reading..} i have all the chapter names & details laid out so it should be easy putting it altogether. this half true & half false. i am changing only a few names because some events were just to a point where i don't think i should share the person's identity. it isn't need for the book or for them. :) i hope you understand that i am not writing a full on REAL STORY, some if in fact false and didn't happen. anyway, i thought i would write a little "back-of-the-cover" book summary for you all!! 

"She was just a girl, 15 years old still trying to figure out Algebra 2 & how the world around her works. She didn't have any special someone like Lucy. She only had her friend, Kelsey. She only had what she knew from what Marly taught her about sex & girl problems. She was just getting used to life without Marly. She was at the peak of her changing social life and didn't want anyone else to leave. So she lied..."

hope to start publishing chapters by tonight!! if not then definitely tomorrow there will be one!

xoxo-Hails

friday letters . written word

dear aussie{jane},

you are truly an incredible person. your words are truly an inspiration! i am beyond lucky to have you help me & have you in my life. i have always admired you from afar, i just love your presence in a room. it can light up a thousand faces! your campers & fellow elfs love the joy & happiness you bring to our week. thank you to the moon & back for being you! you will always hold a special place in my heart. (:

whenever you say you will ALWAYS be there for me, it honestly makes me cry. i don't deserve anything like that. thank you, i honestly don't know how i would have made it through friday without our talk. oh gosh, i can't even get through writing this letter without crying haha. thank you, a thousand times. you are a everyday inspiration!

xoxo CC

dear gus gus{kateri},

thank you for being an awesome person! your thoughts are truly crazy but that is what i love about you! thank you for the offer to beat up some people, but remeber violence is NEVER the answer. haha! i will never forget you.

xoxo CC

dear carrie,

you did a fabulous job in your musical! you continue to amaze me & i love that about you! you are such a sweet friend. all your wonderful advice goes to good use, trust me. thank you for being a beautiful, incredible, unique friend to me. i know that i can't get through somethings without your loving words. thank you for being there. keep up the wonderful things you do!

xoxo CC

{sorry they are a little late but, i was busy. thanks again aussie. <3}

What.... | Ch.5 part 1

Ch. 5 Part 1 He will always be there


"Sorry, I have to go but, I will call you tomorrow?" Austin said.
"It okay, Yes call me! I am glad we can communicate about this stuff & what happened."
"I love you, can not wait to chat tomorrow." he sounded as if he was smiling and could not stop.
"I love you too, talk later"

I really was excited that him and i could communicate about that night. We both agree it was beautiful & amazing but, on the other side we agree we should not do it again for a while. I wish he could stay over every night; not to have sex but, to cuddle & laugh. I know he will always be there for me. Austin told me himself about 5 times a day. I loved his commitment to our relationship. If I was not confident in his love or devotion before, I sure am now!

I spent all day either on the phone with Austin or thinking whether or not to tell my friends and/or Gianna. I knew i could trust them it was just a factor of whether or not I really wanted them to know about that night. I thought of every pro & con I could. I still had not decided & it was 1:23 am. I was so tired my eyes were barely open.

I finally fell asleep at 4am, still no decision had been made. I knew i wanted to tell someone but, who? I wasn't sure if Melissa would think I was a terrible person because I didn't follow her advice & my promise. I knew Gianna would have the least amount of interest in it. She was too wrapped up in her little world of "pain". I thought twice about telling Kelsie. She had not part in my decision at all. I knew Kels would not tell anyone or judge, she just wanted to hear the latest news on the favorite couple at school. She would not ask any questions or anything just hearing that Austin & I did the deed was enough for her little heart. All my other friends were very judgmental and depressed in some way or another. {They just had issues, not even sure I should consider them my friends....}

The next morning I woke up at 6am with only 2 hours of sleep. I was always up at this time, since I can remember, getting ready for my run & morning yoga on the hill with Carrie.  That morning........ it was different I laid in bed for about 20 minutes just sitting there.....nothing to say or think about. I was glad that Carrie finally text me to remind me we had an extra hour to do yoga and extra 30 minutes to run. I finally hopped up and out of bed ate my banana & drank my fruit smoothie. I began walking to our meeting place across the street from my house. {Carrie only lived three houses down from me} I was walking slowly to take everything in; the sun rise, the beautiful birds chirping....everything! I quickly called Austin & said I loved him & that we should meet after my workout at Starbucks. He joyfully agreed & hung up, but not before our good bye's & I love you's. I could not believe he answered, I felt safe & comforted by the thought of his love surrounding me everyday, all day.

What.... | Ch. 4 Part 2

Ch.4 Part. 2 Dear Diary

Once I got home I was beaming. It was an amazing date, I will never forget. Austin was perfect; we were going to the happiest couple in the world! At least that is what I thought.......

I walked into the kitchen to grab an apple & water before going up to my bed. There she was....asleep, quiet, lonely, & depressed Gianna. Gianna is my older sister, she had just gotten out of a relationship that she believed would last forever. {He broke up with her over some stupid fight about bananas.} It made no sense to me, at all. She was still wallowing in self pity. My family decided it was good for her to have this "down time", we called it.

Usually she ould make it to the couch before passing out but, not his time. She was there, lying on the kitchen floor, covered in chips & cheeze-its. I began to wonder if Austin & I might, one day, break up. I knew we always said "forever & always" but, you never know...

"Gianna! Get up, it is 9 o'clock, you have to get up & go to your room! Cierra will be up soon! GET UP!!!"

"What! Did Jake call?!! OMG! Hello, why didn't you wake me up, sooner!!" She grabbed the phone and yelled into it, as if Jake was on the other end, "Hello, Jake?!"

"No body called, you need to get up! Cierra will be up soon!! GO!"

"Oh right, Sorry!!" She yelled as she ran up the kitchen stairs to her room.

Cierrais our little sister, she is 12 ans very young-minded for her age. She should know all about her body & emotional changes by now. We keep her on a tight lock down, as you can tell: Private school, no sleepovers, & no boys! We always told her that Gianna was sick and had the flu. That she couldn't see her during this time.

I thought it was useless because, she always went to me or our other sister, Kasey B. She just felt more comfortable talking to Kasey B. & I about why certain girls wear such revealing clothes around school.  Kasey B. & I never really asked Gianna about anything. It was always mom we would run to.

Once i got up to my room, in stormed my mom, worried about me like I was kidnapped or murdered. She looked at me like a new born child.

"Hailey, are you okay? How was the date? Why are you so smiley!?" she said frantically.

"I am fine, the date was amazing & I had a lot of fun" I paused and looked up as I was unpacking my bag. Mom looked at me as if she knew I was hiding something from her, "Well, you promise you wont flip out or go crazy over this little piece of happiness for me?"

She sat like a dog ready for its treat. "Yes! Tell me sweet heart, what happened?"

"Well, the night was beautiful & the beach was magnificent. I love the movie we went to see, a good comedy....." I proceeded to tell my mom about the WHOLE night, in great detail.

"um....wow, darling are you okay? Was he nice? Not forceful?"

"Yes, mom he was great & such a sweet guy. I am fine. You're not mad?"

"Um... I need time to process this. Okay, honey?"

"Yeah sure..."

After she left the room, I sat there in the room worried & anixous. I was never sure if my mom would tell my dad or all her "closest" friends about it. I was always left with a weird saying like, I need time to process this.... It just drove me nuts thinking about what was going to happen next. Who was going to randomly text me & ask me exactly what happened & with who.

Twenty minutes later, what felt like two hours, my mom came back into tell me what she was going "to do about it". Like it was some big deathly thing, that I may die if not treated soon.

"Honey, I want you to go to see a therapist. She is really good & I want you to get tested & did you use protection?"

"Yes, mom i did. But, I don't understand why you are saying I should go to a therapist."

"I know you don't understand right now but, I want you to be safe & have a person to talk to. I know you love talking to me & Kasey B. about your personal things but, I think you need to see a professional. Also, before you go I want you to start a diary."

"This is so weird, mom. You just are concered about the little things & I am okay. Nothing bad happened. Austin is an amazing guy & I love him. I wanted this. I will start a diary but, I am not set on the therapist, yet."

"I know sweety but, I want you to do this for a while. Until, you get back on track.", like i had gotten off track. I had sex, I didn't do drugs or get into a fight at school.
", I know you don't understand my reasoning and I get that but, I want you to try it my way before you go on with your life. You need to figure out what this means & how you really feel about it. Listen, I have to go & take Abby to her play date & then I have a meeting with Ceirra's Gymnastics teacher. While, I ma gone I want you to start your diary. Okay? I love you!"

"Love you too, bye."

I sat there in disbelief. Of everything. I was concerned my mother had lost it & I knew she was not giving up on this therapist thing. So the only way to possibly get it out of her mind was to start this Diary thing......yippy....

Dear Diary,

I have no idea why i am writing this. I had sex & my mother is very certain that I have some kind of a problem. I guess this may be helpful in getting some of those bad days out of my mind. I know how I feel about some days & I think it would be good to write it out & express how I feel besides blurting it all out to my boy friend in History.

I guess I am here for the long/short hall. I will write again soon, maybe...

love? hugs? bye?
Hailey Joyson

My diary life began.......

What.. CH.3 Part.2

It was like I was watching myself from the backseat, I felt outside of my body & I knew we would last forever. "That was the most.....um....wow...." trying to find the right words Austin interupted, "Incredible, amazing, beautiful, WOW. I knew it would be great but that was.....Joyful." It was comforting to know that he was feeling the same way. I loved him, he loved me....we loved that kiss. We couldn't deny there was....is beauty in the relationship.

After the kiss we sat in car just smiling & glowing in the car. We couldn't wait to see what the rest of the morning brought us. I was so excited, by that time sex was off my mind, I just wanted him to kiss & hug me forever. I was ready to run away with him & just be alone in the world forever. He made my world beautiful....I had lived by the qoute: " Don't choose the one who is beautiful to the world but rather choose the one that makes your world beautiful." That is exactly what Austin did.

"I was thinking that we should go for a swim & watch the sun rise. I think it will be beautiful." Austin was ready for swimming & enjoying the rest of the night & having the time of his life.
"That sounds like...perfection. You are so sweet."
"I just know you will love it......you are perfect."
As we stood there in our swim suits ready for the plug into the cold water, austin glanced over and whispered in my ear.

"I am ready." I was suddenly frozen, he was ready & I was standing there unsure of what to say & do. I was ready to run to the car & call Melissa. I knew i couldn't because that would ruin the moment & beauty of the situation. I opened my mouth ready to say something but, nothing came out. It was silent....

"Me too."

We stood there ready for the cold water to rush all over our bodies & surround us with the warmth of our love.

"I love you, Hailey."
"I love you, Austin." The beauty of the sun rise & the love in the river was magical. We felt alone in a river of love. We could do or say anything our little minds desired. I was amazed at the quietness of it all.

We laid on the beach covered in blinkets & surrounded by pillows. We stared at the river. It was like it knew something magical happened in it that morning.

"We can't tell...I am sorry."
"I was thinking the same thing, I don't want to have any drama or gossip happening at school or in town."
"That was incredible." I was struck by the fact that after he said that, I was ready for him to say more.

We sat there all comfy & warm for, what felt like, hours. Nothing to say & nothing to worry about. In the back of our minds we were both thinking about the sad reality of it all, we soon had to pack up & leave.

What... | CH.3 Part.1

CH.3 love

"Look into my eyes and tell me what you see." Austin was a very poetic person. He enjoyed writing and explaining things in very discriptive & beautiful ways. So when he was asking me qeustins like this, it was no surprise that he was ready to go all Shakespear on me.

"A glow with a tint of blue."
"I look into your eyes and see passion, joy, and love. Hailey, I love you."

Austin and I had never said that to each other. It had seemed like the perfect moment; sunrise on the beahc & inside the same car he asked me to be his girl friend in. I loved him, however I was unsure about where this relationship was going in 2 years, let alone what was happening tonight.

"I love you." In that instant. I felt my twenty seconds of insane courage.

Our eyes met and BAM! FIREWORKS!! The sweetness of his lips with the taste o his coconut chapstick was an amazing feeling.

In that moment we were infinite.

What.... {Ch.1 Part 2}

I knew that i needed to leave for a while & just go away. I was wishing someone would come & yell at me that this was a bad idea & to come back to my friends & family.  As I sat there in the car, waiting for a sign to show me that I had to go or that I had to stay. If I could I would call Melissa & make her come down here just to tell me exactly what to do.

Melissa always knew what was the right choose. I needed her by my side at all times. I wished she was two inches tall and I could carry her around forever. We both needed each other & we knew it.

I finally decided to go. I hit the road & lost my old life. Or that is what I thought. I knew that things had to change & I needed new people, new faces. I had to see everything in a new light & have new experiences. Life was changing & happening in front of my eyes.

Driving in the dark was not my favorite thing. I really hated it. I knew that I was going nowhere fast & needed to find a Motel or any place to stay. I was driving for hours & couldn't find any other car or anything in this stupid little town.

I was tired & slowly drifting off. The signs began to become a colored blurr. My eyes started to close & slowly I drifted off into my dream world. My mind was somewhere else, totally different. I dreamt I was in a world of beauty & love. I wanted to stay, but knew I needed to open my eyes & watch the road. As I slowly opened my eyes, still all I saw was the blurred colors & lights, I quickly realized I was on an ending road.

I tried to think of the first thing I needed to do in this situation. My dad taught me all I knew about driving & these kinds of emergancies. Wishing I could remeber anything, at all, as to what to do in the case of driving of a cliff. It drew closer & I was so scared & then...

{The chapters will be written in parts [just two each] & I will write a chapter a week. I will try & keep up with it. :) the little "quotes" or "sayings" at the end of part 1s will not be included in the real book [once i type it]. I hope you enjoy the book!!!}

Tears & Sorrow with blessings

I am blessed to be writing this post. I am blessed to be sitting here today.

I am blessed to have you. I am blessed to have my family.

I am blessed to have my friends. I am blessed to talk.

I am blessed to hear. I am blessed to smell.

I am blessed to taste. I am blessed to BREATHE.

There, I said all I needed to. These photographs mean more than my words can explain.

Tears rain down my face just looking at each of these. Thoughts raced through my mind. I felt unworthy, blessed, guilty.

In that moment I felt hopeless, painful, saddened by the fact that these people, inocent poeple & childern, were gone & I was here. Why couldn't they be here & me there. As I stood there feeling guilty as ever. I realized how blessed I was.

I have written lots of these but, this one hits me hard & strong.

Things like this, change you forever. You see it in photographs & in movies.. However, nothing compares to when you are there, in that moment when you feel nothing but, sorrow & guilt. 

I was ready to leave, right then. Never to be seen again. I was done. hurt & guilty of something I never knew I did.  Life just hit me with a pile of bricks. I was standing there with the decision I knew I had to stay for family & friends. I have so much to live & breathe for.

not even a year old. sweet little baby girl...

this post is written with tears rolling down my face.
I fel so guilty & will never be the same.
I miss you Omi & Lissie & Kayle & Emmie & Taylee. My girls. This changed me forever. I need someone.. :'( to understand and be there for me.

omgiamasophomore

Being a sophomore, wow, I can't even believe I just typed those words. I have come so far, believe me I have been through some pretty tough stuff & to be here today, saying that I am a sophomore & have made it this far :) It is just so incredible.

There are certain people that have been here through it all, know the tough spots and things that happened. They were there through all the tears & sweat of my lovely little life:  

    Melissa, Carrie, Pilar, Sam, Paola, Aubrey, Diane, Grace, Angie, Kayle, Lissie, Kendall, Francis.

I really want to point out the one and only boy, he is really great! He is so sweet & when I accidentally sent him a text about Lissie's death he was so supportive & caring towards me. {might I add it was 12:11 AM!!} He is always there for me & he tells me so :) I am always there for him, too!

{I encourage all of those who have any issue of any kind, to go to the Love project page. I will contact you through email, not anonymous, if I feel you should be answered privately or though the comment feed. So once you post a comment check back within 24hrs. I know school just began again for a bunch of us & it comes with drama & some summer drama continuing so I want you all to feel comfortable contacting me & asking anything. :)}

Sophomore year is getting off on a great start! I am so excited for things to come & meeting new people. I already made two new friends <3! I like all my teachers, homework I love! I have only had math so far but, I am expecting more tomorrow for the three day weekend! I love having my little aub with me!! She is so sweet & love seeing her every weekday!! I enjoy the lunches we have and the chats!

So happy, you know who you are, that I am talking to you! You are a big part in my life, in my sophomore year! I never want us to leave each other. I couldn't imagine my life without you, girlfriend!!!

Senior year, wow I cry every time I think of kylie leaving me this year. I never want her to leave, she is my big sister & a big part of my life. I wish nothing but, hte best for her & I know she will be here fore me & Come back for all the big moments in my life :) <3

Fifth grade, sorry IK again, WOW!! angie is a fifth grader! I was just chatting with my old friend Paige about when she was four!! that seems like so long ago. I feel like she is growing up way tto fast and needs to slow down, fast before she graduates high school! I want her to be my little girl forever. I love her to pieces & my little sister can never grow up.

I feel like everything is going too fast, things are happening, incredible things however it is sad it admit these grades we are in. How far we have come to getting here. How far kylie has come to getting to Senior year. I wish she would just slow down & take it all in :)Besides the fact that the littlest of the Aliamus' is in kindergarten{he is a true Aliamus and only 20% Pineda}

I have had a serious talk with a friend of mine about things I do & how they affect others, her in particular, & I am working on lots of things that I need to fix & just think before i say certain things & do certain things.

When it comes to boys....WELL, I will always have boy problems, it comes with high school & all the other things you can't dodge, in your life. I have to face it. Some will leave & some will stay forever. the point is to focus on the ones that make you happy & you want to be around them. i have also learned to trust your best friend & if she is having second thoughts about something it is because she wants u to be happy & not in a failing relationship :)

 

I would like to point out the blog button of the month :) it is a new page on this blog for someone special that I want to thank & just be grateful for. Before you head over to the page to see who it is I want to give you pretty little hints:

she is gorgeous,
smart,
independent,
loving,
sweet as pie,
one of the best friends of mine,
great advice giver,
a blogger,
loves country music,
random,
great baker,
loves her family & friends,
great swimmer,
a great supporter,
<3 :D

Blogging manners . written word

So, as a good & honorable blog reader, I learn to have "blogging manners" . They are just, really, simple things that you just catch onto after reading and blogging for a long time :) I wanted to share them with y'all! So, now we can have a more friendly & loving blog world...

THE COMMANDMENTS OF BLOGGING 

 1. Thou shall turn Captcha word verification off on comments.

TURN IT OFF. If you receive a spam comment, it's very simple to delete. I have received very few spam comments in the 2 years I’ve been blogging.

2. Thou shall not be a  “No-Reply” Commenter

Nothing makes me want to pull my hair out more than when I type up a snazzy reply, push send, only to find I sent it to nobody, pesky little Noreply-comment@blogger.com. Please do us all a favor, and take a moment to add your email address to your profile right now. You will get more cookies and love that way.

3. Though shall put careful thought and consideration into their comments
You know what annoys me more than no love? Commenters that don't actually read the post, but comment just to promote themselves. Chances are, if I get a "I'm having a giveaway check me out" or "Come follow my blog," I won't even click the link so don't even try.

You know how good it feels to receive a comment on something you write? Well guess what? The feeling is mutual. If you are taking the time out of your busy day to read something on someone's page, what's another minute to leave a comment with your thoughts?  Feedback is always nice.


Remember: It is not about the quantity of followers, it is the quality of followers.  If you want to attract a blogger to your blog—leave a comment that means something.  Something that will intrigue the blogger reading it and will make them WANT to come to your page


4. Thou shall interact and engage with thy readers

Bloggers who never take the time to reply to a comment. Especially ones I keep coming back to and double especially if I ask a question of them. Girl expects an answer!  Maybe not within the day, week, or year, but eventually dangit! 

 5.  Thou shall not have obnoxious commenting systems
It's a deal breaker for me. I cannot stand ones that won’t allow me to comment unless I sign up. Or require me to input a Name, URL, e-mail, date of birth, SSN, first dog’s name…etc. 

I’ve got an idea, go the simple, old fashioned route of a pop-up comment box.  Here’s a simple tutorial for funsies:

Once there, click the fancy pop-up option.

Comment Form Placement

Full page Pop-up window Embedded below post The embedded comment form can not be used if you have Post Pages disabled.

Easy peasy, lemon squeazy, ay?

6. Thou shall not have music on thy bloggy. If you had any idea how many people look at blogs at work… Bad news bears.

You can, however, add a page for music. :) {I use Grooveshark, it is a great music playlist maker! you can add the playlists or just one song to a post or any blog page :). You can also post them on FB}

7. Thou shall not have Mission impossible navigation

No subscribe button, no contact information, not being able to navigate the site.  Always have your e-mail address easily accessible, in case I want to send you something sparkly. No search box. *pulls hair* I do not want to delve through 18 months of your archives to find what I’m looking for!

Last but, really not least!! Always have photo{s}, it adds a fun & creative side to your posts & they can be anything! Also, quotes are fun, too!

Source: via Kari on Pinterest

Praying & hoping with faith . written word

Source: meggielynne.tumblr.com via Meg on Pinterest

Mom away..
Kylie at practice..
Dad at work..
Curled up in the cozy chair

& Prayed.

Alone for the sake of the silence.

For the sake of the peace.

For the sake of the prayers that are so much easier to hear in this silent house. 

I spent much of last night curled up on my roof with a prayer journal. Alone time is something I never have. The last seventeen hours have done my heart incredibly well. Silent thoughts are somehow so much more powerful than those that come out as words.

I reflected. 

My faith is constantly tested. Someone looked at me yesterday with hurtful intention and spoke words that broke my sensitive heart.

"Why are you a christian? When you pray to god, bad stuff still happens. It's all a lie. I'd rather believe in the truth of nothing at all than in the lie of a big man in the sky who watches us fall and doesn't pick us up again." 

Seriously so broken by this comment.

I had nothing to say. My words were in the pit of my stomach. I wanted to cry. 

I went home and started sifting through emails yesterday. An anonymous email was waiting for me.

"God's not real. You're wasting your time. You're way to pretty to be dumb enough to believe in the stuff they tell you in bible school. Stop with the long skirts and the Jesus obsessed blog." 

This is a clean version of the email. I have NEVER gotten an email like this. I am so incredibly blessed with an incredible support system. This shocked me. 

That was the third time in a single day that I encountered a person my age who did not have a stronghold with the lord. Three times in twelve hours and I began to feel like being one with the lord made me the odd one out. It's not necessarily the coolest thing in the world to write about the Lord on my blog and go to church on Sunday. Especially not at fifteen, but it is who I am.

 & my god what I would give for other teenagers to realize that they are only as good as who they choose to be, not as who they choose to make fun of. 

I am so incredibly blessed to be surrounded with a solid group of girls who don't necessarily walk a path with Jesus- but who respect my own. I am blessed to belong to a church community who helps steady my faith. I am blessed to have no fear in speaking my religious beliefs. I am blessed also- to respect all other religious practices. I am blessed to run this little corner of the internet that allows me to talk about Jesus in a really cool way. I am blessed to have many options for my future. I am blessed with never-ending fullness, forgiveness, and willingness. I am blessed with a guardian angel in heaven who I used to call omi. I am blessed with a beautiful family, home, and life. I am blessed to encounter one email like this in faith blogging. 

But what about those teenagers who don't have everything I have? 

What about those who are made fun of on a regular basis? 

What about those who are terrified to believe in god- because no one around them does? 

What about name calling? 

What about disrespect to the faithful? 

What about those discriminated against for believing in Jesus? 

What about those who want to know Jesus but can't find him? 

My heart hurts for those people. 

I find myself with this constant question- 

"Where does all the hate and disrespect come from?" 

& I find myself in an understanding. An understanding of how a teenager who doesn't know god could be skeptical of him. Look at what we as teenagers face everyday. The pressure, the crowds, the age differences, the exposure, the media, the pop culture, the stresses, the struggle. These feelings don't feel like their is some "big man in the sky" watching over us. At least not to many teenagers. 

At fifteen there are a million things to see and do. 

There is no thought of death because we feel as though we will live forever. 

We cannot see the end, because we have not even seen the beginning.  

There is no need for the lord. The world is good. Our hearts are naive. The talk is cheap.

& Sunday's are for sleeping in. 

Not to me though. 

Maybe to some. 

But not to me. 

I rely on the strength of the lord. 

As for your own path....I wish you the best of luck. As for your own religious preferences, I pray that they help you find what you are looking for. As for your own story- I pray that you write it loud and proud. As for your own memories, I hope that they are incredible. 

I hope this life gives you everything you've ever dreamed of. 

& I pray that maybe- you could do the same for me. 

“Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven" 
Luke 6:37