I should have known | Film Friday

 

{just taking it night by night, day by day, journal entry by journal entry & finding my self....}

Hi! I am back, I have snapped back like a rubber band. I should have known that it was going to happen soon. {I will use that line a lot...} I am so happy to be back & e myself again. I love it when I go through the pain & tears because in the end I get rewarded by God's love & strength to move on & find myself again. I should have known he would come through. I love all my friends for the support & coming through with all the sweet hugs!  have to say, I really did need that hug from Pilar today in photo. I should have known it was coming.

Today will be a day known to me as a peaceful day. The day I made peace with the past. I should have known she was going to say it. Aafter talking with my Godmother, cathy, she helped me realize that I can move on without really moving on. I can be happy & regain my life without being mean. I can eat lunch with my friends & not feel bad or sorry. I would have never thought this way unless she guided me through it. I am excited for tomorrow & can't wait to see my friends, all of them. I will wear my smile proudly & for real, this time. I should have known it was ending. Yes it is over but, it is only the beginning!

xoxo..... Hailey ♥

Hope & birthdays

Hope is what gets me through it all. I know that you have all been there for me but, one person specifically has been there for me day & night. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me & I feel closer to her than anyone else, these past few months. I love her more than anyone in the world. she has been my rock & my spine at times. I needed her guidance through heart break & through nights filled with tears. She was there, no matter what. Through the late night talks and the early morning emails. She was there. Always holding my hand & my hope was always with her.

She has taught me to love myself & be myself. It is really hard for me to do those two things. She is an amazing girl..

When life gets tough Pilar is usually the first girl I would go to. She is very smart & sweet in her ways about life. I love her so much! Having a class with her this year, her last year, was just icing on the cake! I can't believe that she is leaving me in the big world of high school craziness by myself. haha but, I know she is only one quick email or phone call away.

I also have this totally awesome & beyond beautiful sister who turned 18 today!! She is the best thing in the world. I am so blessed to have her in my world! I love her to death, I could not have made it through my freshman year without her & my sophomore year is becoming ten times better just because I get to see her do what she loves & be who she is. :) I wake up every morning and I am more thankful to see her & have her there.

When she plays soccer you can just see her light up inside. She is my beautiful big sister. Teaching me right from wrong & good from bad. I love her for everything that she has done for me. I am feeling so loved with her every morning. I would not be who I am today without her guidance & care. She is the world's best sister & deserves everything in the world & WAY more!! 

Ever since my birth we have been sisters, best friends, & always had each others backs!! <3

xoxo..... Hailey ♥