friends, people you can COUNT ON for anything. help, advice, love, hugs, shoulders to cry on. they are supposed to help you through the rough times and when you make it through they stay with you, realize that, that made your friendship stronger.
when you finish a hardship, all i want to do is celebrate with my friends that hep me through. i can't do that. i dont get the happy, laughing friend that she was. i dont get any of her smiles. i dont get to be there for her when she needs it. and she wont be there for me. it is over. she has made it clear as day that she doesn't like me. WOW, still getting used to saying and seeing that written. it still stings and will for a longest time. for now, all i can do is hide. hide my tears, sadness, & anger. i can only blame myself for the things that she believes i did. i rushed it. i skipped the fun parts of a friendship and jumped in, fast. she wasn't ready and scared of everything i needed help with. i frightened her & she ran away faster than i thought she would. i didn't want this. didnt plan this hurt & sorrow. hope your days are brighter, happier, & better than my days.
:) xoxo, hails
