omgiamasophomore

Being a sophomore, wow, I can't even believe I just typed those words. I have come so far, believe me I have been through some pretty tough stuff & to be here today, saying that I am a sophomore & have made it this far :) It is just so incredible.

There are certain people that have been here through it all, know the tough spots and things that happened. They were there through all the tears & sweat of my lovely little life:  

    Melissa, Carrie, Pilar, Sam, Paola, Aubrey, Diane, Grace, Angie, Kayle, Lissie, Kendall, Francis.

I really want to point out the one and only boy, he is really great! He is so sweet & when I accidentally sent him a text about Lissie's death he was so supportive & caring towards me. {might I add it was 12:11 AM!!} He is always there for me & he tells me so :) I am always there for him, too!

{I encourage all of those who have any issue of any kind, to go to the Love project page. I will contact you through email, not anonymous, if I feel you should be answered privately or though the comment feed. So once you post a comment check back within 24hrs. I know school just began again for a bunch of us & it comes with drama & some summer drama continuing so I want you all to feel comfortable contacting me & asking anything. :)}

Sophomore year is getting off on a great start! I am so excited for things to come & meeting new people. I already made two new friends <3! I like all my teachers, homework I love! I have only had math so far but, I am expecting more tomorrow for the three day weekend! I love having my little aub with me!! She is so sweet & love seeing her every weekday!! I enjoy the lunches we have and the chats!

So happy, you know who you are, that I am talking to you! You are a big part in my life, in my sophomore year! I never want us to leave each other. I couldn't imagine my life without you, girlfriend!!!

Senior year, wow I cry every time I think of kylie leaving me this year. I never want her to leave, she is my big sister & a big part of my life. I wish nothing but, hte best for her & I know she will be here fore me & Come back for all the big moments in my life :) <3

Fifth grade, sorry IK again, WOW!! angie is a fifth grader! I was just chatting with my old friend Paige about when she was four!! that seems like so long ago. I feel like she is growing up way tto fast and needs to slow down, fast before she graduates high school! I want her to be my little girl forever. I love her to pieces & my little sister can never grow up.

I feel like everything is going too fast, things are happening, incredible things however it is sad it admit these grades we are in. How far we have come to getting here. How far kylie has come to getting to Senior year. I wish she would just slow down & take it all in :)Besides the fact that the littlest of the Aliamus' is in kindergarten{he is a true Aliamus and only 20% Pineda}

I have had a serious talk with a friend of mine about things I do & how they affect others, her in particular, & I am working on lots of things that I need to fix & just think before i say certain things & do certain things.

When it comes to boys....WELL, I will always have boy problems, it comes with high school & all the other things you can't dodge, in your life. I have to face it. Some will leave & some will stay forever. the point is to focus on the ones that make you happy & you want to be around them. i have also learned to trust your best friend & if she is having second thoughts about something it is because she wants u to be happy & not in a failing relationship :)

 

I would like to point out the blog button of the month :) it is a new page on this blog for someone special that I want to thank & just be grateful for. Before you head over to the page to see who it is I want to give you pretty little hints:

she is gorgeous,
smart,
independent,
loving,
sweet as pie,
one of the best friends of mine,
great advice giver,
a blogger,
loves country music,
random,
great baker,
loves her family & friends,
great swimmer,
a great supporter,
<3 :D

High School . what is to come

I need to remember a few things.

patience is a vertue.

love who you are & what you stand for.

be careful of what you say & do.

surprises can be good.

pace yourself.

let yourself be free.

don't be someone you aren't.

make friendships easy, not harder.

don't think too much about relationships.

dream big.

enjoy the little things.

be grateful.

make a change, you want to see.

don't let anyone, ever, dull your sparkle.

collect moments not things.

decide that you want it more that you are afraid of it.

you have to fight through some bad days to get to the best days of your life.

it won't be easy.

life goes on.

weirdness is beautiful.

learn to let things you can't control, go.

let your faith be bigger than your fear.

everyday: do something that your future self will be thankful for.

I realize that somethings, for me will be tricky & difficult. there will be bumps in the road & I will have tears along the way. {& I will remind myself and others it is OKAY not to be OKAY.} However, as long as I stay strong & true to myself, it will end up beautifully.

This year my word is HONESTY.

Little talks

I wish summer could come back, it just sank into a little time capsule. Like sand running through my fingers. I wish the little emotions & little moments that made such a big impact. They are what made this summer such a big memory. I know it will be here again, soon. However, the things that are in store for this Sophmore year I know will be great & I am super excited for it to start.

I do have a conversation that will not be pleasant however, I believe that in the end it will be all worth wild. It just make sense for me right now. I know all these things will help me in the long run. That is the only reason why I do them. If I start something I plan on finishing it & I wont stop until I do. I have made friends and relationships that will never fade away. This year will only make them stronger. I believe that if we stick together we can achieve greatness.

Summer has come and gone however, I will always have the memories of all the tomorrows & yesterdays. I can't wait for school & honestly, I can say, that everything i do this year will make a difference weather it is just a little one or a big one, personal or public it will change me & that might just be the way to get to the road I am supposed to be on. Life gives you chances & if you look to hard for them, you might miss what is right in front of you.

 summer friendship picnic!

 4th of july

 tanning in Tahoe

 sleepover's with grammie

 charlie's 5th bday!

 sleepovers with my cuddle bug!

 morning tea

 chat with kylie!

 photography sesh

 angie pangie

 kylie and I reunion

 zoo day with cousins!

 zoo!

 bad boy!

 my coconut

 I made shrimp

 soccer games with dad!

 memory lane

 memories!

 bath time memory

 reading old letters

 shopping

 sunsets!

 elf party

 green shirt elfs

 chat with taylor swift

 new flowers in the "garden"

 planted a tree in nature

dying my hair!

all great memories that will last a life time! so blessed to have photographs to remember it all!

What.... Ch. 1

Ch.1 Hailey... Are you there? {part 1}


I didn't know where I was. I was unsure about everything. Nothing came clear to me. It was all a blurr. I couldn't tell anybody what was happening,  they all would hate me afterwards. I knew I had to do something, something big & fast. Before all of this came back to haunt me.

As the thunder hit the ground I stood above her grave. She had only been gone a month now, it seemed so easy... Just take a few pills and BAM your whole life, gone. In one instant I was stand above a dug up grave and the next I was in it. I could feel her cold body behind mine. It feel so free and so easy. Just to give up and go to a place with everything happy and good. You are whole life would be erased and just gone, forever.

After that summer it had seemed like it was the only way to finish & end all the drama I had started.

"Hailey? Is that you?....." I  heard a voice.
I couldn't make out who it was but, if it was someone trying to look for me it probably was Melissa. The only person who even knew the whole truth. Everything I did that summer was all a blurr to me but, to her it was crystal clear.

As the anonymous person grew closer the silhouette became more & more obvious. I knew as soon as they began to yell, "I need your advice. Please come back!!" it wasn't  Melissa. She would never come looking for me just to get advice and not ask any questions about what I was doing.

I immediately though of the one person who it would be : Josie. Josie was the kind of girl  who if you were not at school for a month would not even think to ask you where you were & if you were okay. She would just ask you if you had the notes from yesterday's Bio class. Josie never really cared about anyone besides herself.

As I pressed my back further and further into the grave, I tried to hide and not make a sound. As Josie came closer, I could feel her getting even more anxious with every step. Her heart pounding and by the time she was two fees away I could hear her breathing.

After ten minutes of dead silence she left. She wasn't one of those girl who would wait for hours just together advice on her shoes for prom. I was really happy she left. I didn't wan anyone there to see me like that. Covered in dirt & sweat, from digging the grave for hours. I had been crying for about 2hours until I finally realized that she was gone, it doesn't matter. She is a vegetable, never to be seen or talked to never, ever again.

Life sucks , so does a lollipop......

Secret Sunday {#10}

A. we made it to 10!! wow and every single post is filled with secrets!! I am so proud! I hope you are all enjoying these secret sundays!
B. thanks melissa for the shout out to do this post! I went to bed last night and though about what this little opening thing would be & I totally forgot this morning in the misted of editing & other things :)

so here we go!

If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge. 

Soocer in Carson City, NV & Santa Cruz, CA

I had a great time watching the girl play at this tournament! i think they all did good could have been better, but all-in-all great fun tournament.
And can I just say I think they should have made the Blue team play them again, just as a fun, practice game. I know a lot of PARENTS wanted to just go home & some of the girls did, too. However, I think it would have been best for them to stay or at least go to the feild & talk about it in PERSON!! that is my 2 cents about the whole last sunday game...

Any who, I made a photo slideshow of some photos from Santa Cruz!!

I know it is a little blurry but, I love making them & I will continue! I have photos to post about the Carson City tournament however, I have to upload them. So check back later for an UPDATE!! :)

Melissa . Park Sesh

 

I finally finished editing them! It was faster than I thought! I am so happy with the way they ended up! I hope you all like the new style I chose! Please comment with anything, likes & dislikes! be honest! :) I had a great sesh with my sister in the park! I loved the setting & all the wardrobe changes. I think it has now become an annual thing every summer we do the picnic & photo session at the park. I know I had a blast & I believe that melissa had a great time, also!