beautiful little fool: November 2012

11.30.2012

Rain

With fall comes the beautiful, amazing, & wet rain! I absolutely love it. I am so over joyed when I wake up to the sound of rain, at midnight. It brings me such happiness to sit there so late and just listen. I feel as if I am all alone & everyone in the world is gone, just me, alone, forgetting all my troubles & worries just for a few hours. I may sound odd when I say these things because most people compare rain to sadness or tears, I compare it to beauty, grace, & happiness. I think of all my blessings and as if the rain drops are my best friends, being close & calming to me.

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I literally fall in love more with the rain every time it visits. Blessed is the word I would use to discribe how we all should feel when it rains. :)

xoxo

Film Friday | the last time

On my mind a lot...

The last time by Taylor swift & Gary lightbody

Gary Lightbody:
Found myself at your door,
Just like all those times before,
I’m not sure how I got there,
All roads they lead me here.

I imagine you are home,
In your room, all alone,
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything feels better,

Both:
Right before your eyes,
I’m breaking and fast,
No reasons why,
Just you and me.

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.

Taylor Swift:
You find yourself at my door,
Just like all those times before,
You wear your best apology,
But I was there to watch you leave,

And all the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again,
Disappear when you come back,
Everything is better.

Both:
When right before your eyes,
I’m aching, run fast,
Nowhere to hide,
Just you and me…

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye…

This is the last time you tell me I’ve got it wrong,
This is the last time I say it’s been you all along,
This is the last time I let you in my door,
This is the last time, I won’t hurt you anymore.

Oh, oh, oh,

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Put my name on the top of your list,
This is the last time I’m asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.

This is the last time I’m asking you this, (this is the last time I’m asking you this)
Put my name on the top of your list, (name on the top of your list)
This is the last time I’m asking you why, (this is the last time I’m asking you why)
You break my heart in the blink of an eye. (You break my heart…)

This is the last time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this,
Time I’m asking you this.. (x3)

xoxo

11.25.2012

Hawaii | Day 1

So day 1..... we get up at around 4:15 am & get everything packed into the car quickly. Then, off we go to Starbucks & Bart. I was super excited the night before I think I only got 5 hours of sleep, if that. I couldn't wait to get on the plane & see the Big Island. We were all so excited & joyful that this day was finally here!!

Once we got to the airport we got our one bag checked & went through security & walked to the gate. I really wanted to just get on the plane and be in Hawaii already! Once the plane started to go, I kept getting all jittery & so excited to really be going there. :)

Once we landed in the 2nd plane, on the Big Island. We all went to get our bag & our silver Jeep rental car. I am feeling fabulous & still pinching myself. As we drive to Kona, I realize the beautiful & peace in Hawaii. No fighting, no bad words, nothing but peace & wonder..

We got to stop and check out a nice little hike to these two beautiful waterfalls!! They were gorgeous & I loved the hike to them. Just filled with beautiful flowers & amazing trees.

Once we got to our condo it was about 7ish pm. We were all still excited & super awake....except Kylie. She was really tired so she went up to the condo & my mom & dad & I went to dinner at the cute little restaurant in the resort Aloha, Fridays. It was good food, not at all bad!!

That day went really fast & was super quick!

xoxo

Dreading

I love school, dont get me wrong. But, when school becomes more of a personal problem I never want to go. I hate that my friends are mad at me & I can't help but feel bad for my other ones who are trying to help. She says her life is getting better and better, all I feel is her & I slipping further and further away. I is not just hurting her & I... But, everyone feels it & sees it. We all know it is happening, not sure why, but we know. I want for it all go to back to normal & the way it was about 4 weeks ago. It has been too long & too depressing for me. Everyone sees it even, my friends that I can only talk to through text. They are all frustrated with the fact that I let it get to me & bring me down.

Missing school & friends but....too sad...

dreading tomorrow....

{this song may sum up how I will feel by the end of tomorrow}

xoxo

Secret Sunday {#21}

Over joyed! I am having my family thanksgiving & making some crafts today! On top of all of that, it is secret Sunday #21. I am so glad we made it this far & I really want to hug you all for staying through this journey. I love you all and wish I could hug you!!

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely weekend! If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

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1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge.

**To anyone who anonymously posts a secret here, if you ever need someone to vent to, get advice from, etc, do not hesitate to contact me personally through e-mail. I have been through some tough stuff and know how alone it can make a person feel at times. I promise I will never judge, and it will be kept soley between the two of us. There are so many of these I have read which make me wish I could give the person a huge hug and let them know everything will be okay.

Boy oh Boy | life lately

Here are some recent photos of my daily life. I recently went on a date and wish I took a photo but, I didn't :( Then I always love my beautiful texts & convos with my big sister kyley. I also love the late night texts with the beautiful Dominique. She makes me understand & believe. I always have room for angie & our late night talks whenever we have slumber parties! Then getting advice from my wonderful Godmother, Cathy, makes me feel more secure. Playing/babysitting a sweet whitney & adorable kevin... HEAVEN! Much more......

Ok so I am odd. with my odd number of photos. :) I love odd numbers, haha.

Hope you are all doing fabulous!

xoxo

11.21.2012

I am Back!!!

I am back & so excited to be! I missed you guys so much! I missed all of your wonderful and sweet comments. I hope you guys had a nice last week of school & i hope you don't have a lot of homework for this thanksgiving break!!! I have only a Monday's worth of homework. If you go to CP you understand ;). So glad to be back in the blogging world! I can't wait to do my 7 or 8 posts about the Hawaii family trip. I can't wait to get back on my Sunday secret schedule sorry I missed the last one. You are totally welcome to do some secrets on this post or last Sundays. I am really excited to have some of the blogs I follow on my sidebar! You guys can feel free to check those out and follow if you want! I love the blogs I follow & try to comment often. I know I have not added another new Monthly Blog however, I will tonight! I am basically adding & updating everything tonight. Then tomorrow night I will do day #1 of Hawaii & Thanksgiving post with my fort post & life lately update!!

So until all those fun posts, which I promise I will totally post, {I know I haven't been very good at the post promises but, I will try and go back and figure out what I promised & post them all by Saturday!!} I want to leave you guys with a photograph from Hawaii & a beautiful quote!

My life has been tough & rough for the last four weeks & I have been doing lots of crying. {I found someone who makes me feel new, beautiful, & loved...}I miss lots of people & need to hear and see them, soon. I have to go, I have a "date" with a sweet boy! xo Updates soon to come!

{I know most of followers are either mad at me or out of the state so, I will wait patiently for the wonderful comments!}

11.13.2012

Secret Sunday { #20 }

Sorry this is late, I have been having a blast in Hawaii!! I wanted to do the post anyway so you guys can still get better or at least feel a little better, while I am gone. I want you all to be happy and smiley when I am not there, too!! Always thinking of you!! Xoxo

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely weekend! To anyone who anonymously posts a secret here, if you ever need someone to vent to, get advice from, etc, do not hesitate to contact me personally through e-mail. I have been through some tough stuff and know how alone it can make a person feel at times. I promise I will never judge, and it will be kept soley between the two of us. There are so many of these I have read which make me wish I could give the person a huge hug and let them know everything will be okay.

If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge.