Secret Sunday {#14}

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely weekend! If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

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1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge. 

**To anyone who anonymously posts a secret here, if you ever need someone to vent to, get advice from, etc, do not hesitate to contact me personally through e-mail.  I have been through some tough stuff and know how alone it can make a person feel at times.  I promise I will never judge, and it will be kept soley between the two of us. There are so many of these I have read which make me wish I could give the person a huge hug and let them know everything will be okay.

What.... | Ch.5 part 1

Ch. 5 Part 1 He will always be there


"Sorry, I have to go but, I will call you tomorrow?" Austin said.
"It okay, Yes call me! I am glad we can communicate about this stuff & what happened."
"I love you, can not wait to chat tomorrow." he sounded as if he was smiling and could not stop.
"I love you too, talk later"

I really was excited that him and i could communicate about that night. We both agree it was beautiful & amazing but, on the other side we agree we should not do it again for a while. I wish he could stay over every night; not to have sex but, to cuddle & laugh. I know he will always be there for me. Austin told me himself about 5 times a day. I loved his commitment to our relationship. If I was not confident in his love or devotion before, I sure am now!

I spent all day either on the phone with Austin or thinking whether or not to tell my friends and/or Gianna. I knew i could trust them it was just a factor of whether or not I really wanted them to know about that night. I thought of every pro & con I could. I still had not decided & it was 1:23 am. I was so tired my eyes were barely open.

I finally fell asleep at 4am, still no decision had been made. I knew i wanted to tell someone but, who? I wasn't sure if Melissa would think I was a terrible person because I didn't follow her advice & my promise. I knew Gianna would have the least amount of interest in it. She was too wrapped up in her little world of "pain". I thought twice about telling Kelsie. She had not part in my decision at all. I knew Kels would not tell anyone or judge, she just wanted to hear the latest news on the favorite couple at school. She would not ask any questions or anything just hearing that Austin & I did the deed was enough for her little heart. All my other friends were very judgmental and depressed in some way or another. {They just had issues, not even sure I should consider them my friends....}

The next morning I woke up at 6am with only 2 hours of sleep. I was always up at this time, since I can remember, getting ready for my run & morning yoga on the hill with Carrie.  That morning........ it was different I laid in bed for about 20 minutes just sitting there.....nothing to say or think about. I was glad that Carrie finally text me to remind me we had an extra hour to do yoga and extra 30 minutes to run. I finally hopped up and out of bed ate my banana & drank my fruit smoothie. I began walking to our meeting place across the street from my house. {Carrie only lived three houses down from me} I was walking slowly to take everything in; the sun rise, the beautiful birds chirping....everything! I quickly called Austin & said I loved him & that we should meet after my workout at Starbucks. He joyfully agreed & hung up, but not before our good bye's & I love you's. I could not believe he answered, I felt safe & comforted by the thought of his love surrounding me everyday, all day.

Secret Sunday {#13}

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WOW, #13 I never thought I would make it this long doing these, but you guys keep posting. I think this is really good for you all!

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely  weekend! If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge.

Hailey & Angie's day!

So, angie & I are here and we decided that we would like to do a post together. And melissa asked us if we would. Now, melissa, you have to do a post, too!!!!

So I will hand it over to my favorite girl, angie to type the rest.

when I arrived  we wanted the three stooges and we posted collage together and I colored. Hailey ate pie while I typed this and I played with the film camera and we are going to paint our nails.

here are the beautiful collages that we made {the first one: mine & angie's fun photos, second one: angie's favorites, third one: Hailey's favorites.} If you like or are interested in having any single photograph I will be pinning them on my pinterest page :) {link on the side bar, the pink "P"}

angie's:

mine:

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I have just been so in love with a few things, lately. First this song!!! ^{I have it on repeat, already listened to it almost 23 times!!!}  Here are a few. I have been pinning & instagraming them. I just home I get to do/see all of them soon!

 old photographs of angie & I

 reading my current obession used to be

 cupcake day!

Pinterest.......
Room ideas & fun exercising things!

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This last photograph always melts my heart. :) I just love the whole "set" so girly yet still keeping a country style to it.

The photograph above it is of a lamp shade with writing on it & it is so adorable, I am definitively doing in my new room!

Then the fall fashion! I just love fall & all the cozy, cute things to wear.

I hope you are all having a beautiful weekend & day!

What.... | Ch. 4 Part 2

Ch.4 Part. 2 Dear Diary

Once I got home I was beaming. It was an amazing date, I will never forget. Austin was perfect; we were going to the happiest couple in the world! At least that is what I thought.......

I walked into the kitchen to grab an apple & water before going up to my bed. There she was....asleep, quiet, lonely, & depressed Gianna. Gianna is my older sister, she had just gotten out of a relationship that she believed would last forever. {He broke up with her over some stupid fight about bananas.} It made no sense to me, at all. She was still wallowing in self pity. My family decided it was good for her to have this "down time", we called it.

Usually she ould make it to the couch before passing out but, not his time. She was there, lying on the kitchen floor, covered in chips & cheeze-its. I began to wonder if Austin & I might, one day, break up. I knew we always said "forever & always" but, you never know...

"Gianna! Get up, it is 9 o'clock, you have to get up & go to your room! Cierra will be up soon! GET UP!!!"

"What! Did Jake call?!! OMG! Hello, why didn't you wake me up, sooner!!" She grabbed the phone and yelled into it, as if Jake was on the other end, "Hello, Jake?!"

"No body called, you need to get up! Cierra will be up soon!! GO!"

"Oh right, Sorry!!" She yelled as she ran up the kitchen stairs to her room.

Cierrais our little sister, she is 12 ans very young-minded for her age. She should know all about her body & emotional changes by now. We keep her on a tight lock down, as you can tell: Private school, no sleepovers, & no boys! We always told her that Gianna was sick and had the flu. That she couldn't see her during this time.

I thought it was useless because, she always went to me or our other sister, Kasey B. She just felt more comfortable talking to Kasey B. & I about why certain girls wear such revealing clothes around school.  Kasey B. & I never really asked Gianna about anything. It was always mom we would run to.

Once i got up to my room, in stormed my mom, worried about me like I was kidnapped or murdered. She looked at me like a new born child.

"Hailey, are you okay? How was the date? Why are you so smiley!?" she said frantically.

"I am fine, the date was amazing & I had a lot of fun" I paused and looked up as I was unpacking my bag. Mom looked at me as if she knew I was hiding something from her, "Well, you promise you wont flip out or go crazy over this little piece of happiness for me?"

She sat like a dog ready for its treat. "Yes! Tell me sweet heart, what happened?"

"Well, the night was beautiful & the beach was magnificent. I love the movie we went to see, a good comedy....." I proceeded to tell my mom about the WHOLE night, in great detail.

"um....wow, darling are you okay? Was he nice? Not forceful?"

"Yes, mom he was great & such a sweet guy. I am fine. You're not mad?"

"Um... I need time to process this. Okay, honey?"

"Yeah sure..."

After she left the room, I sat there in the room worried & anixous. I was never sure if my mom would tell my dad or all her "closest" friends about it. I was always left with a weird saying like, I need time to process this.... It just drove me nuts thinking about what was going to happen next. Who was going to randomly text me & ask me exactly what happened & with who.

Twenty minutes later, what felt like two hours, my mom came back into tell me what she was going "to do about it". Like it was some big deathly thing, that I may die if not treated soon.

"Honey, I want you to go to see a therapist. She is really good & I want you to get tested & did you use protection?"

"Yes, mom i did. But, I don't understand why you are saying I should go to a therapist."

"I know you don't understand right now but, I want you to be safe & have a person to talk to. I know you love talking to me & Kasey B. about your personal things but, I think you need to see a professional. Also, before you go I want you to start a diary."

"This is so weird, mom. You just are concered about the little things & I am okay. Nothing bad happened. Austin is an amazing guy & I love him. I wanted this. I will start a diary but, I am not set on the therapist, yet."

"I know sweety but, I want you to do this for a while. Until, you get back on track.", like i had gotten off track. I had sex, I didn't do drugs or get into a fight at school.
", I know you don't understand my reasoning and I get that but, I want you to try it my way before you go on with your life. You need to figure out what this means & how you really feel about it. Listen, I have to go & take Abby to her play date & then I have a meeting with Ceirra's Gymnastics teacher. While, I ma gone I want you to start your diary. Okay? I love you!"

"Love you too, bye."

I sat there in disbelief. Of everything. I was concerned my mother had lost it & I knew she was not giving up on this therapist thing. So the only way to possibly get it out of her mind was to start this Diary thing......yippy....

Dear Diary,

I have no idea why i am writing this. I had sex & my mother is very certain that I have some kind of a problem. I guess this may be helpful in getting some of those bad days out of my mind. I know how I feel about some days & I think it would be good to write it out & express how I feel besides blurting it all out to my boy friend in History.

I guess I am here for the long/short hall. I will write again soon, maybe...

love? hugs? bye?
Hailey Joyson

My diary life began.......

one of THOSE days

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You know when you have days where nothing and i mean nothing seems to go as you planned. Well, today, for me, was one of THOSE days.

I started out with only having 1/3 of my german homework done because I got the wrong assingment!!I was just so sad I could barely even say two words at brunch. I didn't even have a lot of time to see all of my friends at brunch. I was just so sad & depressed, I could barely even say two words at brunch. I didn't even have a lot of time to see all of my friends at brunch. I felt terrible already & it wasn't even Lunch yet. Next class, I almost had to take a science test that I was in no way preped for & then i preceded to sit at my desk tearing up every 5 minutes. {I was not sad about the test more about Lissie & Omi} I felt so alone in science I knew nobody except a few old friends & one girl I only talked to once.

On to lunch I had to rush over to my english & History class to finish a project & ask a few questions. Then I had to really rush over to S-15 for a meeting. I was so unorganized and could barely think straight by then I was ready for the worst & I got it.... Once the meeting was over the bell had already rang & I was headed to Math. Math class was okay however, we have a test next class & I missed {on monday} the "hardest section"

I knew, by then, that tonight would be a long one......Once, i got home I quickly messaged my friend Kyley & she replied really fast so then we had a little venting session which was nice. I couldn't wait to do some packing or anything to get my mind off of my stupid stuff.

Now, I am writing a email to Melissa and I am here writing this sad post about my sad little, stupid day wishing, hoping for anyone, someone to give me anything: advice, a internet hug, ANYTHING! I just want to feel the warmth and love again, in my life.... Please, anyone......

What... | Ch.4 part 1

{Ch.4 Part 1 Dear Diary}

The drive back was so peaceful and fun. We pent the whole time laughing and making jokes. "Austin we just passed the cutest little farmhouse! Go bacl, we should take a photo there." "Yeah, sounds good! Let me turn around a pull over." I was surprised he even replied let alone said yes.

We pulled over and ran across the street. I set up the camera on and old tractor. As I ran to the camera, I began to picture him & I living there and having a family with some dogs & chickens. It all became so real.

"I love you, sugarplum." Austin was still caught up in the events of the early morning. We kissed, a magical kiss, as the camera went off. We had the perfect shot.

"Let me look, I bet it is beautiful!" I yelled as I ran to check the camera I quickly peeked at Austin petting a little kitten on the front porch. "It is great, I love it!" Austin began to walk back to the tractor, "I knew it would. You are an amazing photographer." 

"All I had to do was set the timer & press a button." "I know however, you did it so gracefully." "Aw, thanks big bear."

We skipped back to the old truck, holding hands. I was feeling incredibly happy. We were on my dream date.

I hate how in class they ask you what your dream date is and you have not a clue what to say. However, when you are on your dream date, you just know it!

What.. CH.3 Part.2

It was like I was watching myself from the backseat, I felt outside of my body & I knew we would last forever. "That was the most.....um....wow...." trying to find the right words Austin interupted, "Incredible, amazing, beautiful, WOW. I knew it would be great but that was.....Joyful." It was comforting to know that he was feeling the same way. I loved him, he loved me....we loved that kiss. We couldn't deny there was....is beauty in the relationship.

After the kiss we sat in car just smiling & glowing in the car. We couldn't wait to see what the rest of the morning brought us. I was so excited, by that time sex was off my mind, I just wanted him to kiss & hug me forever. I was ready to run away with him & just be alone in the world forever. He made my world beautiful....I had lived by the qoute: " Don't choose the one who is beautiful to the world but rather choose the one that makes your world beautiful." That is exactly what Austin did.

"I was thinking that we should go for a swim & watch the sun rise. I think it will be beautiful." Austin was ready for swimming & enjoying the rest of the night & having the time of his life.
"That sounds like...perfection. You are so sweet."
"I just know you will love it......you are perfect."
As we stood there in our swim suits ready for the plug into the cold water, austin glanced over and whispered in my ear.

"I am ready." I was suddenly frozen, he was ready & I was standing there unsure of what to say & do. I was ready to run to the car & call Melissa. I knew i couldn't because that would ruin the moment & beauty of the situation. I opened my mouth ready to say something but, nothing came out. It was silent....

"Me too."

We stood there ready for the cold water to rush all over our bodies & surround us with the warmth of our love.

"I love you, Hailey."
"I love you, Austin." The beauty of the sun rise & the love in the river was magical. We felt alone in a river of love. We could do or say anything our little minds desired. I was amazed at the quietness of it all.

We laid on the beach covered in blinkets & surrounded by pillows. We stared at the river. It was like it knew something magical happened in it that morning.

"We can't tell...I am sorry."
"I was thinking the same thing, I don't want to have any drama or gossip happening at school or in town."
"That was incredible." I was struck by the fact that after he said that, I was ready for him to say more.

We sat there all comfy & warm for, what felt like, hours. Nothing to say & nothing to worry about. In the back of our minds we were both thinking about the sad reality of it all, we soon had to pack up & leave.

Secret Sunday {#12}

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely weekend! If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

 

 

1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge.

**To anyone who anonymously posts a secret here, if you ever need someone to vent to, get advice from, etc, do not hesitate to contact me personally through e-mail.  I have been through some tough stuff and know how alone it can make a person feel at times.  I promise I will never judge, and it will be kept soley between the two of us. There are so many of these I have read which make me wish I could give the person a huge hug and let them know everything will be okay.

 

Months of DIY

I am so happy to say that I will be doing DIY crafts & fashion things. I love going onto pinterest and seeing the latest fashion DIY and the fun & easy craft/decor DIY.  It is amazing to see the things people come up with. They are so amazing & so easy, I sometimes think to myself "Now, why didn't I think of that?" It is so funny to think that you can easily & quickly make fun little crafts & update your wardrobe.

It was easy for me to come up with some of the DIY things i will be doing this year. I knew i had one in mind that I thought of myself & then lots of others that I found on pinterest & other blogs. I have always wanted to try ombre & dying all sorts of things.

Here are a few of the things i hope to do this year.{by this year I am saying this 2012 year, not this school year.}

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These are just a select few of my favorite things that I would love to try & Do. It. Myself. :)

What... | CH.3 Part.1

CH.3 love

"Look into my eyes and tell me what you see." Austin was a very poetic person. He enjoyed writing and explaining things in very discriptive & beautiful ways. So when he was asking me qeustins like this, it was no surprise that he was ready to go all Shakespear on me.

"A glow with a tint of blue."
"I look into your eyes and see passion, joy, and love. Hailey, I love you."

Austin and I had never said that to each other. It had seemed like the perfect moment; sunrise on the beahc & inside the same car he asked me to be his girl friend in. I loved him, however I was unsure about where this relationship was going in 2 years, let alone what was happening tonight.

"I love you." In that instant. I felt my twenty seconds of insane courage.

Our eyes met and BAM! FIREWORKS!! The sweetness of his lips with the taste o his coconut chapstick was an amazing feeling.

In that moment we were infinite.

What.... | CH.2 part 1

Sex {CH. 2 part.1}

{2 Months ealier}

"...go ahead & say it. It isn't a dirty word." Kelsey yelled from across home room.
"Why would you do that in the first place if you were just horny go and meditate. That is what helps me!" Josh said as he pushed aside the geek in the corner.

We all rushed to our seats as Ms.Joshlyn came into the room. Kelsey quickly changed the subject & ran to her best friend, Jess.

High school was filled with tons of surprises. Even on the first day of school, you are immediately hit with a tons of new responsibilities and new people. Some good & some bad, you just have to choose the right. Everyday you are faced with new decisions & new temptations.

Austin was the one guy I knew who wouldn't even think to touch me. Sure we had been dating for, like, ever! However, we made promises to each other & God. {besides the fact that his father was head of the church in our town.} We never touched anywhere that might be sexual.

Austin & I planned on going out this weekend. I was so excited it was our first official date. We had only gone on groups dates for the two years we dated until his dad was positive I wasn't going to pull any sexual or other wise, inappropriate actions. I really did enjoy hanging out with my boy friend. He was the only other person I trusted with my life, besides Melissa. I wished we could have nights under the stars alone without his dad calling every two minutes to make sure we were with a crowd.

 We planned on going to the drive through and then to the beach for a walk & maybe even a sleepover. Of course Austin wasn't going to do anything bad, so my parents totally trusted him & I, being alone.

I had one night to prepare for what MAY or MAY NOT be the biggest night of my life. I knew we wouldn't have sex but, I was tempted and I knew his friends had mentioned it to him. He was always asking before he kissed me, to make sure if it was ok. He was so sweet, sometimes a little too sweet. Austin was the kind of guy everyone thought was perfect & nothing bad ever happened to him. He was the most popular guy in the school, all four years he had been there.

Hot guys are good however, it is better to have a hot guy with a heart.

What.... {Ch.1 Part 2}

I knew that i needed to leave for a while & just go away. I was wishing someone would come & yell at me that this was a bad idea & to come back to my friends & family.  As I sat there in the car, waiting for a sign to show me that I had to go or that I had to stay. If I could I would call Melissa & make her come down here just to tell me exactly what to do.

Melissa always knew what was the right choose. I needed her by my side at all times. I wished she was two inches tall and I could carry her around forever. We both needed each other & we knew it.

I finally decided to go. I hit the road & lost my old life. Or that is what I thought. I knew that things had to change & I needed new people, new faces. I had to see everything in a new light & have new experiences. Life was changing & happening in front of my eyes.

Driving in the dark was not my favorite thing. I really hated it. I knew that I was going nowhere fast & needed to find a Motel or any place to stay. I was driving for hours & couldn't find any other car or anything in this stupid little town.

I was tired & slowly drifting off. The signs began to become a colored blurr. My eyes started to close & slowly I drifted off into my dream world. My mind was somewhere else, totally different. I dreamt I was in a world of beauty & love. I wanted to stay, but knew I needed to open my eyes & watch the road. As I slowly opened my eyes, still all I saw was the blurred colors & lights, I quickly realized I was on an ending road.

I tried to think of the first thing I needed to do in this situation. My dad taught me all I knew about driving & these kinds of emergancies. Wishing I could remeber anything, at all, as to what to do in the case of driving of a cliff. It drew closer & I was so scared & then...

{The chapters will be written in parts [just two each] & I will write a chapter a week. I will try & keep up with it. :) the little "quotes" or "sayings" at the end of part 1s will not be included in the real book [once i type it]. I hope you enjoy the book!!!}

Tears & Sorrow with blessings

I am blessed to be writing this post. I am blessed to be sitting here today.

I am blessed to have you. I am blessed to have my family.

I am blessed to have my friends. I am blessed to talk.

I am blessed to hear. I am blessed to smell.

I am blessed to taste. I am blessed to BREATHE.

There, I said all I needed to. These photographs mean more than my words can explain.

Tears rain down my face just looking at each of these. Thoughts raced through my mind. I felt unworthy, blessed, guilty.

In that moment I felt hopeless, painful, saddened by the fact that these people, inocent poeple & childern, were gone & I was here. Why couldn't they be here & me there. As I stood there feeling guilty as ever. I realized how blessed I was.

I have written lots of these but, this one hits me hard & strong.

Things like this, change you forever. You see it in photographs & in movies.. However, nothing compares to when you are there, in that moment when you feel nothing but, sorrow & guilt. 

I was ready to leave, right then. Never to be seen again. I was done. hurt & guilty of something I never knew I did.  Life just hit me with a pile of bricks. I was standing there with the decision I knew I had to stay for family & friends. I have so much to live & breathe for.

not even a year old. sweet little baby girl...

this post is written with tears rolling down my face.
I fel so guilty & will never be the same.
I miss you Omi & Lissie & Kayle & Emmie & Taylee. My girls. This changed me forever. I need someone.. :'( to understand and be there for me.

Secret Sunday {#11}

This sunday is early! I wanted to do this, now, because I didn't want to forget & I wanted tomorrow for just two specific posted I planned.{I think You guys will enjoy them.. :)} I hope you are all having a great three day weekend! I am up at my Opa's house for, what may be the very last time, I know this will be tough on all of us. I am also enjoying this really great book, used to be it is two books in one & I am on chapter6 of book one! there are 500+ pages in both books, together. I maade a bet with my sister that I could read them by the end of this school year. I know I got this in the bag. :D I have a lot of great things that will be happening very soon & can't wait for my posts on them. <3

 

ANYWAYS...

 

Happy Sunday everyone, I hope you've had a lovely weekend! If you're new here, this is a chance to anonymously share secrets you've been keeping to yourself and just need to get off of your chest. They can be anything from "I cheated on my math test" to "I cheated on my husband" This is for you as well as for myself (I may post a few of my own) We all have secrets that we have to live with, but the best medicine is not keep them bottled up inside. My hope is that this can act as an escape of sorts for a lot of you.

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1. This is open to anyone who wants to participate, from a regular follower to casual visitor.

2. Post a secret anonymously, no names please (Choose the anonymous option under comment).

3. I do this for you guys - so you can get some weight off of your shoulders. If you are not comfortable with sharing, that is entirely well and fine.

4. I am going to participate as well. One of the comments will be mine.

**Remember: Nothing is off limits and we are not here to judge.

**To anyone who anonymously posts a secret here, if you ever need someone to vent to, get advice from, etc, do not hesitate to contact me personally through e-mail.  I have been through some tough stuff and know how alone it can make a person feel at times.  I promise I will never judge, and it will be kept soley between the two of us. There are so many of these I have read which make me wish I could give the person a huge hug and let them know everything will be okay.

fall to do list

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Welcome to September! With fall right around the corner (September 22!) and school starting back up everywhere around me, I am getting the urge to make lists and get things done. I love making lists, I find that it’s a great way to regroup and organize.

Either way, with a new house, you can imagine my to do list is through the roof. It’s easy to lose control or miss something in all the thought clutter, so, here is my to do list for fall:

• get new bedding - once we sign all the papers we will have 24 days to move in, that seems like a lot, right? well, not so much. In our time frame & with our working & school schedule we will only get to move things in little bits. {not to mention the fact that we are moving things from my Opa's house with us, also.} So that means Kylie & I are getting new/bigger beds from my Opa's house so we need bigger bed sheets, comforter, ect.

• make friends - at school every year, i make new friends. I love doing it too! I love seeing all the new people & meeting them. In all my classes I have a wide range of different characters & personalities.

• figure out our life financially – yeah…

• read lots & lots more- these cold days are coming so staying inside for most of them will be, great! I can't wait to wear jeans with long sleeves & a vest! I also have tons of scarves to wear. :)

• plan a day-today schedule- {not a strict one but, just a basic outline} I need one! I can't wing everyday on what to wear, when I do homework, when I have a snack. I NEED a set schedule. Soccer is easy to plan for I know the dates ahead of time & esspcially Varsity I only go to the games so Tuesday & Thursday, done. haha some might think I am nuts for needing a schedule but, I need a structure to grow off of. So all the other things can fit in, when needed.

• Try my VERY best in school - DUH! SCHOOL COMES FIRST {right after family} sorry my freunds you gotta wait.

• decor - for room & house! With this new two story house, I need to get going on pinterest projects & different photography projects for the house. I am already doing two for the house! {& one for my room}

• clean up, current room- I have got to pack & fix all the holes in the walls from photos, my white board, decor, inspiration boards, & lights. sounds like a lot but I can do it in one day just pack all the wall stuff up & start filling holes. :)

So fall is coming, very soon! I can't wait! I am over the moon about not having to move in the hot sun; instead we get to move in the chilly wind! I personally love fall, the chilly days of school & then coming home to homework & a hot cup of tea{ of course after 5:30, end of scheduled homework time & reading, I have movie & tea} I just love it!! hopefully, we get lots of rain this year!!! <3

 What is your fall To Do's?